I might be pushing you away at times and I'm sorry in advance. The one thing I said I'd try not saying, I'm still working on it. I haven't said it really. Though i want to and you know that. BUT I'M NOT! Because I'm not gonna be the reason something goes wrong. I don't care how much it hurts, or how much I still want you, I'm NOT gonna try taking you. I've fought long and hard for you, and I'm starting to just wanna give up, on you, on everything. I'm sinking, still slowly going under, farther and farther down. And I can't find a way up! I don't know how much more I can take. I've tried calming down, but one little thing is said, and suddenly I can't breathe again. It hurts! Too much to handle! TOO much for me!! :'(